Deep Thinker

I have been pondering many questions about the nature of life lately. I do that often, being the thinker I am. While highly intuitive, I treasure the times when I can let my thoughts spread out, and give my mind something to chew on. Who we are and what we are doing here seem to be hot topics that my mind loves to mull over repeatedly. I can spend days pondering one question, and it is incredibly satisfying. Too bad “deep thinker” is not a paid position! I do it often and would make millions.

The thought for recent pondering has been about the experience of feeling ecstasy. I have come to the conclusion over time and through personal experience that life is a journey toward ecstasy. I am not speaking about the kind of ecstasy that resides primarily between the sheets, although that is a fun one! I am speaking about the state of being ecstatic, and what components around us lend to more of that.

Just a few of the definitions of ecstasy (according to
1. rapturous delight.
2. an overpowering emotion or exaltation; a state of sudden, intense feeling.
3. mental transport or rapture from the contemplation of divine things.

I used to think that the main purpose of life was towards happiness, fulfillment, finding oneself in a state of contentment, and adjusting the circumstances in life towards that aim. I have discovered that the step beyond happiness is ecstasy. I am certain that it is possible, and I am convinced it is the closest thing to what it feels like being spirit…free of ego.

What causes or creates ecstasy is highly distinguished from what causes or creates happiness, at least in my mind. The difference to me is that ecstasy can not only be experienced by the beautiful unexpected and often surprising moments of pleasure, it can also happen during times of deep loss. Ecstasy doesn’t end with getting it “all right” in the world. It comes upon us when we least expect it, and can sweep us up out of ourselves, aligning us with a state of bliss unmatched by simple happiness.

I recently lost a dear friend. It was quite unexpected. I was in emotional hell for about a week. I found myself becoming quite cynical, going through the regular thoughts same as everyone else “why did this happen?” and “if only I would have spent more time with him.” I sat in those emotions of grief and let them surge through me like ocean waves. Then something miraculous happened. I actually began contemplating his life, my connection with him as deep friends, our long bond and all these memories came flooding back to me. Our moments together became so precious suddenly, I felt so much energy surging through my body. The energy was familiar to me. It was ecstasy. The contemplation of our precious bond and the divine connection I was present with opened my heart and I cried from pure joy that I had the opportunity to know him.

Conclusion: pain is part of ecstasy. It’s part of the deal. It can open the heart to healing in ways that nothing else can. It is hard to think how the two are connected. However, the threshold between the two are so close. I love it that the light and dark moments of our lives can open us in ecstasy. Ponder it with me, won’t you? Can you see it?


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Business with the Full Moon

Well, let’s just say I am quite clear as of late I have taken on some pretty important business with the moon. Noticing for some time how affected I am by the pull of that beautiful cosmic orb every month, I finally decided to play with her. August was really the first time I intentionally sat down in a ceremony to connect with the healing pull I have felt for years. She has teased me for so long, when I finally sat down to make the connection it was like coming home.

I am sitting in my home office recognizing the importance of this upcoming full moon (Sept. 27, 2015). It is directly followed by a lunar eclipse (Sept. 28, 2015). The September Supermoon or Harvest Moon is when the moon is closest to the Earth out of the entire year. The following day, the dance the earth, the sun and the moon are doing together is pretty potent. Stop to think about it for a moment: We have a gigantic rock, a star and a planet all playing peek a boo with one another. The Earth is going directly between the Moon and the Sun in special cosmic alignment. It is an important time for being gentle with yourself, as your own inner Moon seeks to release, heal and align. Stating intentions to release patterns of thought and behavior, emotional baggage, and anything slightly hidden that you want to have the awareness of, that no longer serves you or those around you.

Allow the Full Moon to assist you. It is a powerful time to cleanse and renew.

Full Moon Poem:

“I left the earth to touch the moon,
and she showed me her insides,
spoke of her pain and struggle,
hidden depths of vulnerability
and secret desires.

She spoke of her exhaustion,
the endless days and nights
suspended in the sky taking
whatever light and warmth
the sun would grant her.

Then she showed me her power
and strength, her ability to know
with deep, penetrating awareness
her ability to change the tides
and stir the earth.

I have always known the moon.

But I met her for the first time today.

She showed herself inside of me…
and I was suddenly whole.”

– Chanda Parkinson

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Spiritual Overachiever

I love love love thinking. It is one of my top passions and hobbies. I love to watch as thoughts bump up against one another in the inner recesses of my private universe. At some point, the thoughts find their way to some sort of conclusion. Today’s conclusion I have drawn is regarding our tendency for becoming spiritual overachievers.

It is a rich rich open world of spiritual seekers that we live in these days. The topics for exploration are really endless. You can get anything now via the internet: spiritual advice covering everything from intuition development, tips on becoming a better manifestor in your life, how to meditate properly, how to relax, simplifying your life, why it’s important to learn to BE, systems for everything from cultivating mindfulness to healing your chakras…it is pretty awesome and daunting.

I dare say I am a tad bit worried about the tendency in my field for seekers of all types to get sucked into the endless trail of spiritual improvement. I chuckle, as I realize by writing this blog I risk falling into the same category of practitioners telling you what to do to improve your life! We are all so full of wonderful wisdom and guidance to share aren’t we?

I love being on a wide open spiritual journey and with knowledge and tools to assist. Trust me, I have had my own fair share of wonderful experiences that have added to the depth of me, helped me grow. Where I get a little stuck is that when we are reaching for the heights of our own spiritual development…and see that life is still happening…I worry that we then consider ourselves a spiritual failure. I struggle that we are setting ourselves up for yet another area of life to reach perfectionism…and when we don’t get what we expected or hoped for, the repercussions are extensive. We are left feeling badly about ourselves and wondering what we are missing because we aren’t floating on a cloud of peace?

I hope you see where I am going with this. I am not at all suggesting that it isn’t worthy of your time and energy to explore on your spiritual path. Just please remember that life still happens. And much of life is imperfect. That is just as spiritual as the next meditation course and psychic development retreat. What you risk losing out on for the sake of following the endless trail of spiritual self-help is the ability to pay attention to how your spiritual journey is opening in the moment. If you find yourself nodding in agreement, maybe it would do you well to stop seeking so much and allow your spirit to breathe a little.

The journey you are on as a spirit is ongoing…whether you subscribe to the next best spiritual philosophy, book, system, training, retreat, trip or development workshop. Your spiritual journey is happening every moment of every day. Breathe into it a bit and settle down. You aren’t missing anything. You are perfect. Exactly as you are. There is a time when you can learn everything you need to know just by being aware of the moments you are in and using them to understand the nature of who you are.

I never stop learning. I suck up information. It’s an addiction. SO! I am writing this partly to slow myself down. Where am I trying to get to so quickly on my spiritual path? What am I in a hurry to understand or have happen? Why did I decide that everything I need isn’t already within me? Who told me it wasn’t o.k. to just breathe and relax into life?

Thanks for walking with me on this path. It is certainly a divine dance we are all a part of.

Peace. Chanda.

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Hi, all. I’m doing a break from my normal blog entry to offer a little shameless promotion. I am SO PUMPED up about this and want all to know…Hugs.

“We are Stardust…Million Year Old Carbon. We are golden…”                                

– Joni Mitchell

The Moon…our nightly orb of cosmic beauty. We have been enchanted for ages by it’s energy and mysterious quality. There exists such a magic in it’s invisible forces. It illuminates the darkness and intensifies all sorts of earthly phenomena.

The moon in astrology captures the inner landscape of our hearts and souls…and when channeled properly, provides insight and healing. It is a nightly beacon to heed tending to hidden side of our selves, illuminating what no longer serves us – mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically.

What if harnessing the moon’s energy could:

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)   Help you shift your insides powerfully to release the old.

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And all you had to do was ask and go within?

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Calling Forth the Miraculous

I loved this old blog entry. Enjoy!

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I am reading the most wonderful book right now “Buddhism Plain and Simple” by Steve Hagen. I do not consider myself a Buddhist, I don’t really consider myself anything really. Reading books like this reminds me quite humbly that I truly know nothing. I am a wanderer on this path called life just like the rest of the world. Good, bad, up, down, left or right…I cannot escape from the fact that I am the sole proprietor of my life. I am the one in charge of what I create and how I choose to relate to every single moment. At first when I began the book, those thoughts sort of bothered me. Yes, I know them to be true, but I fumble around in my life from time to time and neglect the beauty and sacredness available in the mindful creation of each moment. It’s really hard work to take…

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A Message to My Children

Reposting this blog, it stands so strong and so true today.

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I have been deeply in the throes of understanding the journey of love. A dear friend recently called me “The Love Scientist.” I think I laughed out loud at first, but after he explained what that was to him, I started to wonder if I actually was! My entire life…well really for as long as I can remember, I have been testing love and all it’s edges. I thought long and hard about what must have been my laboratory for love from the beginning…and could see strong examples all along that makes that an accurate title. I was such a lover in my high school days, falling for someone who gently nurtured me and I him through our first love experience, then I entered the arts and learned how to feel deeply into love through music, dramatic arts and wanted so desperately to figure out how people think, feel and…

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Hello there from the love scientist. I am in the second blog entry after declaring a month long (or possibly lifetime) revealing of my most recent findings on love. I will tell you immediately it is not an exact science. The laboratory is the heart, the mind and the soul. I have already made many messes and mistakes trying to understand this complex world of love. I have stretched so far beyond my comprehension of the capacity of the depths of love one person can experience. I have grown to understand quite deeply that love is a lifelong journey of exploration and experimentation. I wake up each day, push up my sleeves ready to get to work.

Today’s ponderings in the love laboratory are on freedom. It becomes clear to me freedom means many things to many people. I also am aware that there are two distinct areas where freedom is craved. One is in life. One is in love. I’d like to take time to distinguish the two, at least from my own laboratory of findings.

In life…and to some…freedom is best known through the acquisition of things. Degrees, wives, husbands, mortgages, 2.5 children and a dog, money, promotions, regular life responsibilities. To others freedom is the opposite, the need to release all of those things and see freedom like the absence of responsibility, no spouse, no children, little or no money, relinquishing anything associated with the material world. What works for each is different. My strong wise hunch, from a very curious 41-year old perspective…is that none of the above list really creates a sense of freedom for most. Of course I am not a statistician, and do not support this with evidence and facts. You can do that for me, if you like. It’s a hunch. Then there are those who try to find some sort of middle way…in between the acquisition of material world and the relinquishing of it. Hmmm…I might find myself in there somewhere, come to think of it. And yet there are days, even for me a sense of freedom is craved. So where is it found?

Or maybe the answer is, there really isn’t an answer. The right formula to freedom in the material world…a big racket, and laden with gurus, professionals with opinions, all claiming to know they have found it!! The right path to freedom. You can subscribe to and join the Financial freedom bandwagon, the Environmental freedom cause, the Entrepreneurs R Us wagon…the Anti-Marriage group…and you will certainly be on the trail to a powerful new way of looking at the world…at least for a while. Maddening, isn’t it?

Then there’s the freedom that is experienced through something called Love. Oh, that word is so yummy, I can hear in the background the cheesy soft porn music playing…as everyone gets groovy in their bodies…the masculine in his cute business shirt and sassy dance moves, and the woman in her low cut blouse and “come get me” eyes. But I digress. What are we talking about here? Lust? No…freedom through lust is sort of like buying a bigger house. It seems like that is going to be a great purchase but there always ends up being something bigger and better around the corner.

Shift to your heart for a moment. How does it feel in there? Cobwebs and dusty spaces? Blocked with a lock and key? Numb? The heart is the generator for a lust for living. Which we are all entitled to. Buy all the houses and cars you want. Escape through movies, drugs, self depleting behaviors (mine is food)…and wind up where you began and no further free.

You know you are at the threshold of the ultimate of experience of love through ecstasy. Ecstasy is experienced in many ways: sex, birth, true moments of connection, pride as a parent, accomplishing great things, the chemical reactions in your body that are released shift your heart. The generator for the lust for living, remember? If you are far away from ecstasy, it is your clue that you haven’t done everything you can do to open your heart fully to love! There is hope!

True ecstasy, the ultimate experience of love for men, or the masculine, is the freedom of the self into full consciousness. What the heck? What does that mean? Well there is a way to access more…than the material world…it is through the nonmaterial and transcendental realm of consciousness. When men experience this realm, it feels like being ON purpose, fully engaged with the others in the world, seeing things clearly, feeling like all is right with their world and themselves. It may appear on the outside quite self-absorbed. But…listen up ladies…when your man is ON you know it, because his presence at home is strong and things flow.

True ecstasy for women, the ultimate experience of love…is through the release of their full radiant light and power as feminine beings. We have a lot of work to do in the world…but when we are laden with too many masculine responsibilities, we get downright grumpy and have a difficult time connecting with anyone in a meaningful way.

True freedom through love for both men and women starts in the self. It has nothing to do with our acquisitions of things, marriage contracts, promotions or bank accounts…but tapping in fully into the dial of the heart, and exploding into the world. You can do that alone. Many do. Some like to have a partner (or several).

The partnership between you and your relationships is pretty huge to your profound experience of freedom in the world as an individual. Who around you is being supportive of your fullest release of the self through ecstasy? What roles do the others in your life play in the delicate balance of all the moments of your life?

Life is an undeniable journey toward ecstasy, and I assert ecstasy is the key for both men and women to experiencing true freedom. I guess it’s a spiritual thing. I wish I could say I had all the perfect formula for experiencing ecstasy, but I am definitely still in the laboratory working it out…trying this potion and that for myself. Resources that have been a tremendous help for me lately are “The Way of the Superior Man” and “Dear Lover” both by David Deida.

I know that my love relationships have played the starring role in my ability to set my own heart free. I have learned that I don’t want the feeling of constraint in my life. So I will be certain I am with someone (or someone’s) who can repeatedly help me to ecstasy, the gateway to freedom. If you are asking yourself what ecstasy is, and what it feels like, you probably haven’t experienced it yet. Keep going to the laboratory, I’ll meet you there.

Peace. Chanda

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